“Is life worth living “, he asked
A guy named Isaiah asked this question on yahoo answers:
“I’m a 20 year old, male, college student. I’m an aspiring pharmacist; my grades are good, thus far. Though it seems like I have a promising future, I still feel like killing myself. I have no friends, no “go-to” guy or girl that I could just hang-out with on a regular basis. I’ve always felt alone, unloved, isolated, empty, insecure, sad and vulnerable since I was born. I’m so tired of feeling this way.
I’ve always had acquaintances through the years, but I feel like I had to pretend to be happy just to maintain those relationships.Depression is not an attractive quality, apparently,and therefore, I have withdrawn from society. I’ve always felt different than everybody else. I’ve only had one true friend, but he left to college. Moreover, I’ve never had a girlfriend , either- I’ve never been good with the ladies, I’m too shy.Also, my family is dysfunctional, my father recently died, and I am shunned by own family. I’ve never been told that I’m loved-not even once in my life. This loneliness is killing me, It hurts so much to live.
I escape by sleeping,excessively masturbating(I know, pathetic), over-eating, playing music,listening to comedy, and reading. My feelings are often overwhelming, I feel like I’m on the brink of psychosis. I often imagine me jumping from a building or shooting myself in the head or overdosing on sleeping pills or hanging myself. These somber,foreboding thoughts constantly play in my head. Life is passing me by.
I feel like no one will ever understand me, everything is just too complicated. Life doesn’t make sense, anymore. I genuinely don’t want to live anymore. Every time I feel a little joy, It never lasts, I always come back down crashing and burning worse than before. I feel like everyone is happy and having fun with their lives, while I’m bitter, depressed, and asking existential questions all day. I don’t think I’ll ever be happy, ever. Life is a lingering, painful disease that suffocates me everyday. My eyes don’t like me, and my soul wants to leave. I also don’t think I can ever make new friends or get a girlfriend, because,lets be real, who wants to be around a lonely, sad, bitter individual? So, is there any hope at all? Should I kill myself? It seems like the only viable option for me. I don’t want to shed any more tears or feel pain.”
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20101023212425AAv28MM
My questions are:
1) Is this guy a troll begging for sympathy?
2) Isn’t every one our age going through more or less, some of the same shit he described? I mean, for people like us that live in the most depressing city in Canada (arguably?) , he seems like your average winnterpegger, right?
3) For the past 4 years that I have been going to U of M , the question that people asked me the most (believe it or not) is “What is the meaning of life?” I am like ” damn, I have never taken any philosophy classes, how the hell am i supposed to know?” Tell me what you think?
